This is the time of year when everyone makes a list
of all the things they want to accomplish in the New Year. Well that has already
started for me. I began changing my life in May of this year. I am loving the
changes and the ME that is coming through now. I know I still have a long way
to go but I will reach my goals.
I have already overcome so much this past year. I
was at the point where I prayed to die. I told God to take me home now. But
Thankfully he didn’t do that. I am here. To understand where I began my journey
read my very first blog post:
There are many things I have learned this year. I
have learned that I am an emotional eater. Whoever said eating and emotions do
not go together has never met me. I have noticed when I over eat and when I
don’t. I know the signs now and I am putting things in place to prevent this.
I also learned that I am a person who needs a
schedule. I hate this as well. I do better when I have schedule and plan ahead.
I am writing one up today. I am getting back on track. [Bonus fact it helps me
not have as many panic attacks.]
Thanksgiving to Christmas has been rough on me. It
is hard to say no to all these wonderful sweets people offer you and give you. I am proud to say I didn’t gain a huge amount
of the weight I lost back. I gained six pounds back. L
However, I am alright with that because I know I did it when I gave in &
ate what I shouldn’t have.
I also have realized there are so many things that I
want to do. You see when I began this journey I was 469 pounds. I was not
active at all. I didn’t do anything. Now I am beginning to be active and do
things. I also want to do so many things. I have a bucket travel list, I want
to learn to dance, I wanna do the waltz, I wanna do the walk for a cure I want
to record me performing and share it now and………………………. The list goes on and on.
My niece told me that if I lost all the weight she would go on the rides that
scare her at Walt Disney World with me. I have something new to motivate me.
That will be like a new trip for me. Riding the rides I normally can’t. As you
can see I have a new passion for having an active life.
My biggest goal is still going on the 2015 New Kids
on the Block cruise. To celebrate the new me and what I have achieved. [Here’s
a secret I’m scared to death of getting on that huge ship. I’m so afraid I’ll
have a panic attack & flip out & won’t be able to board] I want to do
this cruise to meet Jonathan Knight and thank him for saving my life and
inspiring me. All of NKOTB have but Jonathan really did save me.
[To understand what I mean read http://mmbreakingfree.blogspot.com/2013/09/my-story-so-far.html
]
So here are my goals for 2014:
1-Contiune on the Journey of Change. I want to lose
130 to 150 pounds this year.
2-I want to gain strength and endurance. I will walk
and exercise more. I want no more flabby arms, legs, or just the whole body.
3-I need a job! I need one I can walk to and from
without being run off the road. [I have had that happen three different times]
I apply for the jobs and even do over phone interviews and they want me then
they see me and everything changes. Well I have decided not to let that be what
stops me anymore. I need a job. I have bills and a cruise to save up for. [Because
I know I will reach my goals.]
4-I want to finish my book this year.
5-I want to finish the Christmas play for church I
am writing.
6-I want to start recording me performing songs in
Sign Language and posting them.
7-I want to inspire the youth I work with on
Wednesday nights.
8-I want my blog to grow and help people realize
that change can still happen. It’s not too late.
9-I want to cross off some of my bucket list this
year as well.
These are just a few things I want to do this year
but I know I will always add more. Life is never finished when you achieve a goal;
it just means you can now go on a new adventure.
I hope that you all have a Blessed and Magical 2014.
