Ripples....and Walking…….
I have two thoughts lately a lot. Sorry but this is
two blogs in one.
Ripples…..
I’m sure that you’ve heard quotes and stories about
the ripple effect actions have on people. I completely agree. I was thinking
about this lately and begin wondering if I had any ripple effect on anyone.
Then a strange thought came to my mind. What about the ripple effect in my
life? Then I thought is that being self-absorbed? I really spent time thinking
about these two questions. Well here are the answers I came up with. I’m sure
it is different from others.
No it wasn’t selfish or self-absorbed to think about
the ripple effect in my own life. I must realize and understand the changes I’m
making in my life. Most importantly I most agree with the changes that I’m
making. I must agree spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I must like the
person I’m becoming.
I thought further on the ripple effect in my life. It
is amazing. The person I was just a year ago isn’t the person I am now. The
person I was just three years ago isn’t the person I am now. I thought further
back to my early adult years, my teenage years and even my early teens. I’m nowhere
near that scared, sad, unhappy, fearful and lonely person anymore. I have come
a long way. I know I have a long way to go but I’m am so closer now than I have
ever been. All the changes in my life, big, small, good, and bad have all came
from the effect of a ripple. Somehow someone has inspired me, hurt me, loved
me, shown me, cared for me, laughed at me, laughed with me, brought me down,
lifted me up, pushed me up, pushed me down, stomped on me, walked with me,
yelled at me, gave me a kind word and this list can go on forever……..We’re all effected by the actions of others. This is a fact of life. What is also a fact of life, we can choice how we want it to affect us. We have that choice.
I began changing. Then one tiny change led to another
and another and another……………….
The ripple effect I have had on my own life is awesome! I was inspired by others but when I began to change I realized I can control the ripple effect in my life.
One of the biggest changes I have been making is not
letting fear hold me back. I used to let fear of having panic attacks keep me from
doing things. In fact I spent most of my life in my room. I get so nervous
around people especially in social settings or crowds. Lately I have been going
for it. I’m not living in fear of the panic attacks. Well I did something
recently that is out of the box for me. I entered a contest. It was a dancing
contest. I love to dance but not where people can see me. I dance all the time
while I’m alone in my house cleaning or working out. Dancing in public NO! I
love American Sign Language. [ASL] I love performing in ASL. I wanted to at
least try for this contest. [Yes I really want to win too] I tried many times
to combine dancing and ASL. I would try to record it and even just recording it
I would have fear so bad I was shaking from head to toe. I didn’t even try for
two days because of the fear. I finally just went for it. I found someone to
record it and did it. I was so nervous and scared. I knew people would be
watching it. I did it. I didn’t look it because I knew if I did I wouldn’t have
posted it. I just uploaded it. I went for it. I entered the contest. The link
below is for the contest. If you would like to see the video and vote for me:The ripple effect I have had on my own life is awesome! I was inspired by others but when I began to change I realized I can control the ripple effect in my life.
Walking….
It is strange for me not to be able to walk any
further than around my block. I had been doing really good and walking
everywhere. After having pneumonia and bronchitis for seven weeks my body can’t
walk more than that without getting winded. It’s depressing because I miss my
long walks. My long walks were a huge help in losing weight but also in helping
keep my focus on being positive. I know I will get there but it is a long and
slow process.
In many ways I feel like I’m having to start over. I
have to rebuild my endurance and strength back up. I will but I hate that I had
to take a step backwards. URR! I’m grateful that this was not because I gave
up. That is good news. I’ve regrouped and made some goals.
1-By July 17th I will be able to walk the
entire route that I was before I got sick again. 2-I’ll also be able to do the Richard Simmons DVD again by July 31st.
3-I’m also going to start writing down what I eat and drink in detail and see where I’m going off and then change it.
I’m going to refocus on these details. I’m not
thinking about anything but these details.
To see where my journey began:
http://mmbreakingfree.blogspot.com/2013/09/my-story-so-far.html
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