When everything crashed around me

Everything Crashed Around

Well yesterday I got up and saw my to-do list and realized this was a busy day. I then turned on the computer [everything I needed to do had to be done online] and my computer went crazy on me. It would turn on but not do anything else. Well I got a bit stressed and tried turning it off and then turning it back on again. This did nothing to fix the problem. I started to get a bit worked up. I had an article to submit which the deadline was coming up. I had to work on my story that I am written. That's when the panic set in. MY story is on this computer that isn't working. OMG! My story. I have put so much time and energy into this story. What if I never see the story again. I turned the laptop off and turned it on again and this nothing to help me out. It was not working. My story is in this laptop that is not working. I am very upset now and crying. My hands are beginning to shake and I am getting more panic by the second. My story, the entire book I am writing is gone. Then I remember my articles for a couple of magazines are now gone as well. All of my pictures have been scanned and are on this computer. OMG!!!! My life is on this laptop that wouldn't work. I am now in total and complete panic. All I see is everything is gone. I am now trying to breathe and catch my breathe but I just am getting worse and now I can't focus on anything but the fact that I lose my work. I am so mad. I just want it all back.

I call my sister in a panic [she's a computer IT person.] I

then call my friend whose husband is an IT guy and leave them a message. I call another friend who answers, Thank God, and talks to me to hope me calm down and refocus. This took almost an hour.

Well the laptop is still not working. However, I have my story. He was able to go in and get it through safe mode and get it to a flash drive for me. I am breathing about that at least. I still can't get online because I have no laptop nor do I have a cell phone so I feel very out of touch.

I am writing this from the library computer on a time limit. This computer also keeps closing on me. URRRR!!!

So I won't be bale to Blog, FB, Twitter, or email for several days. I will miss you all and pray for my nerves to hold up because in the last 2 days I have had 3 panic attacks.

[I hate thee library computer there is a time limit and I can't think well with one of them.]