Accepting Yourself Flaws and All

Accepting Yourself Flaws and All

I know I haven’t posted anything in a long time. I am sorry. I do have good a reason for not posting. I have been inspired on the story I am writing. I have been writing way into the night and then I’m waking up just to write some more. I’m loving, the creative juices that are running through me right now. It is an exciting journey to be on.

I am still working out and staying focused on improving my health. I love this journey as well. I find that I have so much more energy. I also have found it easier to stay in a positive mood when I work out. I just am becoming a happy person. [I like this because even I hated the grump I had become.]

I have also gotten addicted to Twitter. I have been on there actively less than two months and I love it. I use Twitter just for fun and encouragement and I have received both and then some from Twitter. I have shared my blog and story on twitter and gotten some wonderful words of encouragement from it. In fact, the inspiration for the next part of this blog comes from something that happened on Twitter.

The other day a Twitter friend of mine, [Tammy @Chase_N_Jon] responded to something that Donnie Wahlberg said and her comments stopped me in my tracks and started me thinking and really wondering about the words she wrote. Here’s her comment: “I always tell my kids Always accept and feel comfortable with your flaws, that way no one can ever use them against you.”

I wondered do I really accept or feel comfortable with my flaws. The answer was no. My whole life I have been made fun of for two things-1-My weight and 2-For having panic attacks. During my school years I was bullied and I felt so ashamed of who I was. It got so bad I had to be home schooled. I have never been comfortable with myself. I have even hated myself.

As you all know, I have come to the point in my life where I am changing and facing a lot of fears. But I still wasn’t comfortable with my flaws nor did I accept them. So I have done a lot of soul searching this past week. I really struggled with becoming comfortable with my flaws. I’d like to say I am but that wouldn’t be true. I am becoming comfortable with all of me even my flaws. [Yes even my flaws]

I realize that by being comfortable with my flaws I am not giving someone else the power to keep me down. I now have power over the flaws. So I have panic attacks to the point of no life yet. So I have eaten to hide my emotions to the point now I am fat. It is who I am right now but it isn’t who I always will be. So whatever you say about me I already know. I am me and that is wonderful. [Even my flaws]