It is
getting closer to the time I travel by Greyhound bus to Dallas to see NKOTB.
The closer it gets the more excited I become. I’m still adding to my workouts
and walking. I’m determined to do this.
What
worries me, is my nerves. Oh how I hate my nerves. They do tend to get in the
way. [If I let them.] Everything about this is not something I’m used to doing.
It is an unknown for me and that makes me nervous. I have a ticket but not sure if I have a sit. Let me explain. I was told by American Airlines Center that I had to buy my ticket first and then they would help me arrange a sit. I explained my size and weight. I explained I needed a chair without arms. I was told then buy a floor sit. We can change it after you buy it to ensure you’re at the end of a row. Call us back after you get the ticket. That is what I did. I have tried on several occasions to get the ticket exchanged. I can’t. I’m in the middle of a row. Not good as I take up two seats. I have now been told I will be moved to a sit I can sit in but it is on first come first serve bases as where you will be seated. I could end up much further back then the floor seats. Plus I might have to stand the entire time. Now you see why this is embarrassing and unnerving for me. I don’t know what will happen. [This only adds to my nerves.]
I have had horrid experiences in my past going to events where other guests there and the staff have treated me like dirt and were just mean to me. I hope that this is not the case for this concert. I have worked hard at losing weight and getting things on a healthier path. I know I have a long way to go. I’m just letting my nerves get the better of me right now. I’m worried I’m going to have a panic attack at this concert. I always feel so worthless when I have them. I’ll also be there by myself.
Yes I’m
still excited about going but man my nerves are killing me.
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