Honesty and Frustration

Honesty and Frustration

I said when I started this blog I would be honest. Well today being honest means I feel like a failure. I really do. I have failed at this again. URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

You see my scale has been broke for several months now. I been weighing at friends or public places. I got mine fixed today and stepped on it. I hate myself right now. I truly do. I have gained all but 6 pounds back. I have failed yet again.

I don’t know understand this. I’ve been walking, doing the Richard Simmons DVD’s, drinking water and yet I have gained it back. WHY??????

I’ve lost inches. I’ve been measuring that. I’ve gone down in my clothes and yet I’ve gained the weight back. WHY?????

I really am a failure. I hate this. The whole reason I was going on to this concert was I had lost the weight. [That and I love NKOTB] Now the weight is back. I feel like if I go it will be a lie.

I HAVE FAILED YET AGAIN!

I really don’t understand anything about this situation right now. I haven’t achieved anything. NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To see where I began this journey:
http://mmbreakingfree.blogspot.com/2013/09/my-story-so-far.html
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