Well I Did It....

Well I Did It…………………………………

Today I finally brought a gym membership. It is a small community center gym but a gym. I bought my first month membership today. I then went about my day. I had lunch with my mom. Came home did some things around the house. Then I got ready for the gym. I broke down.
The gym I joined has a heated pool. I’m adding water aerobics to the routine I do already. The water is heated plus is low impact on my body. I knew that it would be good on my body. I got a swim suit on line several years ago but never used it due to not feeling comfortable. I put it on today. I looked in the mirror and lost it. I looked worse than I thought I did. I felt very much like a fish out of water. I swear I wasn’t going to go. I felt like I was horrid.
I haven’t worn anything but knit pants and oversized blousy knit tops for almost 15 years now. So now I was wearing a swimsuit with a low cut back. I felt naked and exposed. You could see all of my fat on fat. I hated seeing myself in the rolls of fat. I said “I am not going!” I was crying and began shaking. My mind flashed back to Jr. High and all the times I was made fun of in gym classes. I was beginning to get all shook up. I was starting to shake. I was determined not to go. My roommate reminded me of my goals. She reminded me of how I could do this. She said if the top is bugging you then wear one of your baggy shirts to swim in. She even went and found me one. She made me remember my goals.
I took several deep breaths and packed my duffel bag for the gym. I put on my ear phones and walked to the community center. I went in and signed in. Then I went to the locker room to change. [Locker rooms and I have bad memories for me.] I started to get upset again. I went in and just didn’t think. I changed clothes and went to the pool. I went in and got in the pool. The first five minutes I stood off to the size just moved my legs around. Then I felt fine. I went to deep end and just swam and also worked out my legs and arms. I loved it. I was able to move and do far more than I ever did. I loved it. I stayed in the water from 3 to 4:20. I got out showered and walked home.  I did it.
Now I have a way to walk in a safer neighborhood, do Richard Simmons DVD’s and swimming and water aerobics. I’m excited about how this new venture will add to my change to healthy.
I have a huge goal coming up on May 14^th. Adding to my workouts will only make achieving this goal and enjoying this goal more enjoyable.
To see where my journey began:
http://mmbreakingfree.blogspot.com/2013/09/my-story-so-far.html
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