Weigh In Update

Weigh in update J

Well I weighed this morning and have gotten rid of another pound. J That is great!!!! Brings my total in this challenge to 8 pounds. L However Jennifer there is still a little bit of time I might just beat your 22 pounds yet. That’s my plan and goal still. I refuse to give up on that win.

 

 

Now my total since May is 46 pounds. Now that is something to cheer about. I am 4 pounds away from my first 50 and major goal. JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

 

 

Wishing.......... I wasn't me

Wishing ……I wasn't me

Last night was terrible for me. Yesterday was a good day till about 10pm. I spent most of the day yesterday taking care of my roommate. [She has health issues] I made some major decisions about some issues I have been dealing with. I got a major part of my story the way I wanted it. It was a great day.

Well around 10 last night things changed. [I hate the night] My roommate needed me to help her with something. I did. After that everything went downhill. I don’t know why. I went to my room to work on my story and couldn’t even type because I was shaking so bad. I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was being suffocated. I couldn’t even think clearly. I tried to speak but no words came out of my mouth. I sat there like this for a long time. I kept trying to refocus my mind. I kept trying tell myself I was safe and I was going to be alright. I tried to focus my mind on the fact I was in my room. I was gripping the arm on my desk chair so tight part of it ripped off. No matter what I did I couldn’t get myself refocused. I couldn’t get myself to believe I was alright. Then the part I hate the most happened. I started crying. I mean crying uncontrollably. Then I really couldn’t breathe very well. My roommate heard me at this point and came in my room. She knew instantly I was having a panic attack. She sat in a chair beside me and very softly talked to me and kept talking to me for way over an hour till I was able to calm down. I was able to breathe again. I was able to think again. [I am very grateful my roommate hadn’t gone to bed yet.]

The rest of the night I was jumping and a nervous wreck. I didn’t sleep well at all. This morning I am writing this very mad at myself. I mean why did that happen last night? It shouldn’t of happened. I had a good day. I didn’t have to go anyway and speak or perform. I am so upset with myself for allowing that to happen.

I am writing this morning knowing that I missed church. [One of the few times I get to even see some of my friends] I missed getting to see my youngest brother and sister. I hate this sad of me. It is terrible. Right now I don’t feel like I have made any progress.

I have decided that all I have to do today is two things.

1- Meet my goal of being honest with this blog. [Done]

2- Do something out of the house. (A walk, yard work, something out of the house)

 

Workout says it all

Workout that says it all

Ever been working out or doing any other activity when you realize I am doing this so much easier than I use too?

Well this happened to me today. I was doing my normal workout realizing this was not big deal. I wasn’t struggling to do it. I was breathing so much better as well. I ended up adding two more songs [about 7 minutes.] to my overall workout. This is a great thing. J J J J J

So now I am looking to starting doing an exercise video again. I hope to make it through it.

Interesting

Interesting

I find it completely amazing how things can change in an instant. If you are afraid of spiders you might not want to read this post.

Yesterday I was bitten by a spider. I have no idea what kind. It was a little bitty black one is all I know. I know it hurt like fire when I was bitten. It was in my left hand right under my index finger. UHHH! For a bit there I was scared it was bad and I would have to go to the ER but it didn’t. Just a small area of my hand hurt. [It doesn’t today]

I went on about my business yesterday and thought nothing more of it. Last night I couldn’t sleep. I kept waking up screaming because I was dreaming about getting bite and eaten by spiders.

Today was going along good. I was getting a lot of writing done when I felt something on my neck and then my back. I jumped up and screamed convinced I was about to be bitten by a spider again. I looked around trying to find the spider and found my cat with his fur standing straight up in the air. He was sitting on the back of my chair propped up against me and the chair. OPPPPPS I scared my poor baby to death. He still hasn’t let me near him.

So the day of making progress with writing in my story has now been derailed by an imaginary spider.

Day 12 weigh in

Day 12 weigh in

Well I know this was supposed to be on day 11 but I forgot to do it.

I am sick this morning so I almost didn’t do this. I have lost another pound YEA!!!! J

I am making this short because I am really sick. I wasn’t able to go church today due to being sick.

Signing off to rest.

Finally some happy news to report

Day 8 weigh in

Ok I know I am not supposed to weigh on day eight but I just had to. I have been so down about not losing it seemed like my body just stop getting rid of the weight. It was very frustrating. I decided to weigh again this morning and I am glad I did. I have lost another 4 pounds. YEA!!!!! I lost 8” more as well.

So Jennifer for this challenge of yours I have lost 4 pounds and 8 inches so far. I still can and will beat your numbers.

As for my grand total since I started this I have lost 44 pounds and 48 inches. Can we get an Aman!!!!

I am doing a happy dance. As my reward I am going to turn up the music loud in my room and just dance to some NKOTB. Heck I am even going to sign it. J J

I am so glad I didn’t quit. I hope this is helping someone since no one is commenting on my blog but I do hope this helps someone not to give it. Hang in there.

Day 7 weigh in

Day seven weigh

Well the ½ pound I gained back is gone and that is all that is gone. I don’t understand what is happening here. UHHHHH I will keep working towards the goal and I still want to win this challenge. So this is me getting mad and by the next weigh in I will have lost some weight.

I will measure inches later just have to process the fact there is no more weight gone.